HSG

OK this test was so awful. To start things my husband could not come as he was working so my mom took me since I could not drive home. I had the re from hell do my test. This re was the one that gave me the donor egg speech in November. I could not believe it. I was in a nightmare.

Then to make things worse my uterus is tilted and cervix was really high so they had to use a extra long speculum and use lidocaine because of it. I have never experienced pain like that in my life. The pain from my spinal was much less than the hsg.

My left tube was blocked, but had a feeling it was since it looked like it wrapped around my ovary on the u/s. But my right tube is open, so that is the positive thing. So now I know that when I have the lap they will remove my left tube and I will not have pain on that side.

Period From Hell

OK, I know this is not something no one wants to hear or discuss. I was wanting my period to come since I knew I was not pg. Then took provera to make it come and now it just wont leave. What is the irony in that?

Letter from RE

I got my mail today and there was a letter from re. He sent me a copy of the letter he sent to my pcp and gyn. It was very nice but it was a very depressing letter. It made it sound like I am never going to get pregnant. But when reading about all the surgery he will do gives some hope that it will help or least at this point male me feel better.

The doctor has never seen anything like this before, which makes me nervous but confident that he can figure out what is going on with me.

Dh needs something to do!

My husband has been on vacation since Thursday and it is really driving me crazy. He is so moody when he has nothing to do. Never planned on vacation and then forced to take it or loose it. I wish he had told me before. Why do men never really say what they are thinking? Or it comes out so wrong and you just want to ring their neck!

R.E. App

I went to the new re yesterday. I learned more from in 20 mins than the entire time I was seeing my gyn. I just cant believe it. I am finally going to get the care I need. They scheduled my lap and I will schedule HSG. If my tube does have to be removed than lets hope the other one works.

Doc visit

I went to the doctor today. Sometimes I hate going to the doc. Well he was giving it to me today. I know I need to lose weight and I have been watching what I eat. I know I need to change my lifestyle which I have been working on. I am finally starting to feel like myself after a year of this crap with ptc.

I think making life changes will be good for me and my family. I know my dh is helping finally. He is really changing his tune about things. I really like to see that.

Not moving yet

Things are finally calming down. We don't have to move for another month. But still having to move is driving me crazy. I will start packing up next month. My re appointment is next week. I hope and pray to god that he can help me.